School has officially started! Well, I guess it did a few weeks ago, I’m just a few weeks behind in life. Quinten is in his second year of Preschool, and my oldest is being homeschooled.
Any other homeschoolers out there? Anyone else having trouble starting? Am I the only one that feels totally unqualified to homeschool?
I have spent hours planning stories, and poems, and books, and movies and crafts for the month of September (We are studying Explorers, the country of India, and Astronomy). I made supply lists, and activity lists, then trimmed them back to what I felt was a reasonable goal. I marked books, combed over Pinterest, and spent all the money for all the things. It’s over half way through September, and we have read once about Christopher Columbus, and took 3 days to make spyglasses out of plastic cups and paper towel tubes.
What am I doing with my days?
Trying to get my house back in order after my 6 weeks of full time work.
I have one in 3 day a week preschool.
I have two in soccer (Why are the preschool kids having a practice AND 2 games a week? they’re 4!)
I have 3 that participate in the YMCA gym and Swim program.
And I’m still working outside of the house one full 8 hour day as well as the little things for the job I have to do from home.
My baby still isn’t sleeping through the night. She is close to a year and still wants me to be her personal binky 4-6 times every night.
There are more little things I could add but I don’t want to seem like a whiner (too late?).
How do you moms do it? How do you take care of the little ones and still nurture the older ones? And then still take care of yourself? And your marriage? I’ve dropped a small fortune on books and supplies only to have it sit in unorganized piles unused, in a room that I’ve designated for school that is always a mess because it’s the baby’s favorite place to play and destroy.
So why do I even homeschool him? Why not just put him back into school?
Because, like all things, I know that this isn’t permanent. I know that I will get my house back into order, that I will find balance. But mostly, I know that this is what I am supposed to do for my family, no matter what sacrifice and struggle it may be for me.
I tell people all kinds of reasons why I homeschool, and they are all true. Things like “Everett just wasn’t himself when we sent him to kindergarten” or “Everett just does better at home.” And those are true. I know he could adjust and do fine in public school, but I have felt called, if you will, to homeschool my kids. If you’re religious, and I am, I have felt that this is the path that God wants for me and my family. If you aren’t religious, then say it’s something that my gut kept telling me and wouldn’t let alone. Always trust your gut, what ever you may call it. I happen to call it the Holy Spirit shepherding me in the right direction, you may call it intuition. Either way, you know when something is telling you to take the plunge and go against the grain, even when logic may tell you otherwise.
This blog is an example of that circumstance. A few years ago, I had this feeling that I should blog. So I sat down and created this blog. It’s made me no money, I have a very few people who actually read it (thank you for those of you who do), I can hardly fit time in to write, I’m not even a good writer, and I’m not sure I even fit into a niche. I’m kind of a food blog, kind of a family blog, now a homeschool blog. But for some reason, I’ve just felt like I needed to blog. Maybe this is why. Maybe my homeschooling journey will resonate with others and help them on their homeschooling path.
I don’t know. But what I do know is, that I have to have faith, trust my gut, and move forward no matter what everyone else may say, or think.
So I’m going to keep blogging, and keep homeschooling.
Wish me luck!